By Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Columbia
Nobel Prize Winner for Literature, 1982
Say always what you feel not what you think. If I knew that today is the last time that I am going to see you asleep. I would hug you with all my strength and I would pray to the Lord to let me be the guardian angel of your soul.
There is always tomorrow, and life gives us another opportunity to do things right, but in case I am wrong and today is left to me, I would love to tell you how much I love you and that I will never forget you.
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I remember hugging our "Honey" as he leaned back in his chair the morning of November 10th...hugging his sweet head and kissing him as I walked past going here and there in the house.....I wish I had hugged one more time. I made breakfast for him, his favorite omelet and we talked about the day. At first he thought he wouldn't go meet his friends, but they begged him, and he really didn't want to miss a chance to sing!! I remember saying "bye" as he left to go sing (I don't remember that I was on the phone with Cherry, she reminded me of that) He called out, "I'm gone...", and I said, "okay, bye!".... and I remember watching his truck go down the driveway as I sat at the computer.... I wish I had kissed him one more time. But I believe that he knows that, and that he accepts the kiss I have for him now in deep love... I have to believe that.
....looking at a Painted Bunting just outside the window, and thinking of you.....see him?
It seems to me that I bored you saying that I loved you every day, every night, so many times. Yet, it seems to me that I didn't say it enough........now I mean it...and I say it again, Honey, I love you with all my heart!.....hear me...... hear me...........feel me.....
tonight I would tell you that I love you more than ever!!!!! I miss you and I can't understand how I am supposed to go on without you HERE!!! I have given up praying, begging and pleading for you to come back....... although, that is my wish. I realize that is crazy thinking.... something that I have done quiet a bit of lately. But, I want you to know that I will never forget you; I will never stop loving you with all my heart; I will always want to hold you again..... I just wonder if you think of me, of our family? That is a consuming thought these days... why? I don't know. I don't understand much anymore... I just miss you, and find myself so LOST without you... Without YOU. Sandy
I say yet again, I love you my sweet Honey. Do you hear me? Do you? Do you hurt because you are away from me, as I am in such pain because you are gone? It seems that you would... I suffer with out you. I look for you. You are not here. I know that.... you are "there." Where? ...... "There."..... not here. And where am I? I am here..... without you. That is the pain. And, what is "here" without you? That doesn't make any sense!
Just wanting to talk to you today. It is cooler, and beautiful outside. Maggie and I are about to go fill up the bird feeders and then she will get a bath.....things are all the same around here,huh? ....except you are gone. I love you as always, that will never change.
I am missing you so much today Honey. I feel alone and a little afraid for some reason. School has started back and that helps me keep my mind busy, but when I'm not concentrating on that, I think of you; and miss you.
I'm thankful I have this place to "meet" you, and to talk to you in a formal way. Thank you for our beautiful daughters, and the wonderful life you have given me.
I love you...
tonight I'm feeling pretty helpless without you. I mowed and it looks good. All we are doing is thinking about the trial, oh I hope and pray that I am making the decisions that you would make..... how can I know? I can't. There is not enough energy for me to even say something meaningful...I miss you, and I love you!!
I miss you with all my heart, my soul, and all that I am....for I am a part of you.....you are a part of me.........how can we not be together? .....? I love you, Sandy
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