HAPPY BIRTHDAY - SEPTEMBER 15th My father performed this song with the Tyler Chamber Chorale a few years ago. I wanted this video to give you a sample of his life and all the people who love him forever.
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Hope you enjoy this song! It was such a beautiful song when he sang it and so much more meaningful now! I wanted to show clips of his life and some of the people who have loved him. kara
Love it Kara! For those of us who didn't get to hear Horton sing often, it is a real treat to be able to listen to the recordings. I love looking at the photos...Very well done...
Kara, I called you as I was still sobbing after watching your precious tribute to our Honey! You have given a part of yourself within this beautiful collection of meaningful moments in your Daddy's life,..and mine. It is the epitome of all he is.... thank you. Honey, you are so loved, and deeply missed by us all. We know you are with our Lord in his Glory now, and ask that you keep us in your prayers that we may live our lives in a way that brings you honor, and Glory to God. I love you now more than ever, and I will always be yours,......Sandy
Today one year ago was the last time I was able to see your beautiful face. It was so hard, Honey to be with your physical body, but know that you were no long with us. Yet, your beautiful face still radiated love, peace, and beauty--all that you represented in your life. You had a slight crooked smile, and Michael said you looked as though you were about to tell us a joke. Oh, how I wish I could hear you tell one more slightly-off-color, corny joke! Or hear you whistle without showing it in the grocery store, irritating the clerks!! I miss our quiet moments where you would talk and laugh with me, hold me close and keep me safe. I miss YOU, I love you...forever. Sandy
Here are some words that perfectly describe who Horton IS..... (Kara we might want to post this song by AmiciDefined):
Born with the voice of an angel. A boy with the earth on his hands. For this child of the lowly, Fate had made other plans. He was only a man of the people With barely his clothes to his name But when he sang there was magic. Touched by love's sacred flame. La Fiamma sacra. Holy fire in his soul, born to conquer the dark, A man who came to carry the flame.Awakening, La Fiamma sacra. He sang to the soul of a nation A voice for the meek and the strong. A world of fabulous stories came to life in his song. With a gift for the whole of creation He gave not for fortune or fame A simple man blessed with magic, touched by love's sacred flame. Holy fire in his soul Born to conquer the dark, A man who came to carry the flame With a voice than can speak to the heart. Holy Fire in his soul, born to conquer the dark, A man who came to carry the flame, Awakening- la fiamma sacra.
Oh, Kara. Your daddy was obviously such a special, special man. I know you all miss him horribly. This is a truly beautiful tribute to him and his life. Thank you for sharing this part of your daddy with everyone. Love you.
For those of you who did not know my special husband....he was indeed loving, talented, incredibly gifted, and extremely special.......... I was so blessed to have been able to love him for 43 years..no, more for I still love him, and always will. Thank you for coming to hear his songs...that gives me just consolation to know some young people listen to him singing, ...what he so wanted to do forever......and now he does. Thank you, and love sincerely, Sandy
I sit here tonight, Honey, alone and confused knowing that I must go on with my life....and hating that understanding, for all that it means. Yet,I just go....go on... even though I don't exactly know what that means, or where that will take me. I know that I must devote myself to study and complete my Graduate Degree to Honor you......and bring Glory to our Father. Beyond that I had no idea what "going on" means. It has a quality and a sound that I don't like to hear..........I resist it. But to resist is to deny reality and to deny your LOVE for me......... I must go on. Help me to understand that...please. I have always looked to you to show me how I should make decisions...so you must help me now.... I love you so much that I can sometimes not breathe thinking of you...... We cannot be separate for long, and definitely not forever, for I exist in your breath........ I love you. Sandy
Sandy and family, you are an example for us all. You bring honor and glory to our God and a lovely tribute to your beloved Honey. It is a blessing to know and love each of you. Laurie
This just brought back so many sweet memories of your Father and Mother. Kara, how blessed we are to have your family in our lives. God bless you. You honor him well. Bette
What a beautiful video! I really enjoy the pictures and love hearing your Daddy's wonderful voice. Your work here is very moving. Love you all so much! ~Kristi xo
Honey, How I remember all the First Sundays in Advent with you.... it is so different now. I have gone from being lost, to being confused, to being depressed, and now to being somehow caught between depression and tomorrow. I don't know where I belong; I don't know who I am. All I know for sure is that I love you. That is my ONLY reality. I float from one day to the next. Somehow, with God's help, I complete my responsibilites, and my homework, but I only float. You are still my reality....I find it so hard to allow you to be away from me.....I grasp at you, at your memory with all that I am. It is so hard to move from one moment to the next without you. Without you............... I can't imagine what that means, but it is true, dear God, I am without You! That is not the way it was meant to be, God brought us together...this is not right. I love you......................always yours, Sandy
Kara, It's been many years since I have been in contact with. My fondest memories of you and your family was a Halloween party that you threw at your home in the 5th grade. Your parents went all out to make it the best party ever and IT WAS. I know how much you loved your dad. I had no idea that this tragedy had happened in your life. I pray that only good things such as this website comes out of it. His voice was INCREDIBLE and the beautiful photos to go with it was an absolute beautiful tribute to your dad! God bless you and your family!
Honey, I'm thinking of you so much this morning...the 2nd Sunday of Advent... it's so lonely with YOU, who gave me everything I ever wanted! I have been listening to you sing in the car....I haven't been able to do that until recently. So now you ride with me wherever I go. But you would anyway for I hold you, and your love deep in my heart....for always, Sandy
Honey, it has been so busy, so much to do, but through it all you have been in my heart. You are with me everywhere, everyday, everymoment. Do you feel it too? 2009 is drawing to a close, and honestly I'm not too sad about that, it has been so difficult without your physical presence. I don't think I ever fully appreciated everything you did for me, because now I miss it all so much. I've been trying to sing with the choir because he helps me to feel closer to you. I lost your music for Long, Long Ago, and it upset me so much. I lost the purple scarf you bought me in the same week. Perhaps I am supposed to learn that I need to let go, not grip so tightly to the physical things that remind me of you, and search for you within our Love which never dies. I do believe that we are still connected, and always will be. Do you feel that too? I miss you. I love you, some things never change. I am yours, Sandy
Honey, today it is quiet in the house and I am slowly trying to clean up my perpetually messy office (remember?).....and listening to some beautiful Christmas music; and, as always thinking of you. 2009 is almost over, how can this be? It feels as though I am stuck at the end of 2008. I know that I must begin to "let go" as all the advice and self-help folks preach. Perhaps I grasp too tightly to the physicality of your presence now taken away from me; perhaps I should search for your presence within me, within our memories. How do I do that? I need you to help me . . . I love you with all my heart. The years my come and go, and change and reshape, but I will always love YOU. Sandy
I am "without you." Life is "without you." The two saddest words are "without you." I am "without you." What can be done for a broken heart? What can mend a heart left brutally cut in half? All I can think of is you, my forever love, my true heart. Nothing else is - except those words: without you. I am a void, an emptiness. I am without you. . . Sandy
Honey, remember the night we went over to the hospital in 1966 and you tried to give the nurse your perfectly and carefully composed list of time of labor pains during our gin-rummy game? The nurse almost laughed at you....Bless your Heart...You are the most wonderful man, loving husband, and faithful father. Today as I think of Kara's birthday, I am drawn into memory of our sweet love. My love for you remains as strong as ever, I miss you. Smile down on Kara and send her your love today. Sandy
Gee I'm missing you today Honey. I'm sorry that Inka has wandered away, but you know her, maybe she will come back as she always has before. I have so much to tell you about Rome, and Assisi, and my wonderful new friends......... about the class, and all I've seen and learned. You are still my best friend, and my true love, my heart, my life...it doesn't seem right not sharing all that is happening to me with you. Maybe you know it all anyway....I hope so. There's so much I don't know...the more I learn, the more I see that I don't really know anything. You would tell me to keep on, and that you were proud of me...I need to hear that again. I love you, and always will, Sandy
OH Honey, your friends J.T. and Suzi Pundt made a beautiful DVD of some of your performances with the Chorale...... it was so good to See you again, doing what was so important to you and what gave you such joy........singing and performing. It reminded me of how I fell in love with you, and how you looked when you sang.. your sweet hands moving, and your "crooked" smile (that is a private joke) !!! I love you, I love you, Lara and Mara saw it tonight; I can't wait for Kara to see it too. We all love you, and we will never forget your eloquent message in song..no matter what you sang, you gave it all you had.....and that has always been so glorious! always yours, Sandy
Honey, my special and only love, I find myself devastated again thinking of loosing you, wondering why the grief was so heavy all of a sudden as I drove home from seeing Harley, that I couldn't hold it in any longer. Then I realized it was Monday once again, and 1:30 in the afternoon. How cruel these Mondays have become; how long the time between 1 and 2on Monday afternoons... It has now been 21 months...how can that be, and Why? I touch things that you touched and I feel close to you in some way, even the non-salt shaker with "Horton's" scrawled on the side. I know you must be able to feel my tears and my pain...........I know that you must for they reach out to you into.....your presence. All I can say or think is, I love you...I love you. Sandy
Honey tomorrow is your birthday. What would we have been doing? Maybe I would make your favorite breakfast, then all the girls would call you and you would have cards all over the dining room table! Joe or someone would call you with the latest dirty joke! and you would laugh until you crowed!!! I can almost hear your laugh even now.... I love you, everyone loves you.... you are loved completely as always and forever. Sandy
...I watch this again and again. I think of so much, our families, our parents, our children... over and over. Tonight I think of Inka...oh sweet dear loving dog. YOu loved Horton,and he loved you. We miss you, we wonder why/where you left/and went to.... we wish you were here where you belong with us.... yet we know you were a gift...a gift of God...As each of us are to each other...we can't control a gift of love....it is ....it simply is. We miss you, we wish you were "bodily with us" so that we could "take care of you"...but isn't that silly......God takes care of you as one of his beloved creatures....just as we are.... I miss you, but I think of you as walking with Honey, your favorite person of all times...it is good that you walk together.... xoxoxIlove you both so much, Sandy
My Honey... , I offer this to you tonight: The Life of the Pain.............
I can't express this pain.............only to acknowledge that it has a life of its own. Some moments I can be in service for /or acknowledging others, and yet at the same time the pain is there...living its life despite my best efforts at ignoring it.
It is there. I can be listening to music; watching the glorious sunrise; hearing from my family; seeing the latest happy photo from my friends on glorious vacations; or in church watching others sit holding hands with their husbands...................................... and it is there. The pain, the loss lives alone; it does not need my tears, nor my acknowledgement; nor my suppression...it lives a life of its own. Its life is far freer than mine now. . . my life is gagged, and bound by society's acceptance. I would prefer to be sobbing in the presence of all my friends; lying in my bed with the covers drawn tightly around my face; or simply sitting in the dark. But that is not to be--for the pain does not will it. The pain now lives where I used to be. It is the commander of what is.
...and I regret that, but I am powerless before it.
Honey, I still cannot breathe when I hear you sing....it takes me into another plane of existence ....your voice has always taken me away-somewhere in perfection, with you. It is over two years now, and it seems like yesterday/a hundred years ago. It is Thanksgiving again; I am deeply thankful for the love we shared...no we share! I am completely thankful for the years we had here, our family, all you have done for me, our home, our travel, our music, our jokes, our porch-sitting, our silliness, our shared worship, our laughter, our learning together, our luxurious love... thank you for your powerful presence in my life, and all you have given me. I pray that I was able to give you a small portion of what you have given me.....I love you forever, Sandy
I've been a part of this family now for alittle over a year and everytime I read the sweet letters from My new Momma Sandy I ball like a little baby.I miss a great man whom I never had the opportunity to meet..I love you and miss you too Daddy Horton... Tony Ward.
Thank you Tony for your comments, they mean everything to me...and it makes me realize how much I HATE having to leave my comments as Anonymous....uh! But oh Well, maybe that is the way it is to be. You did miss the physical Horton, our Honey who was/is bigger than life itself (cliche but true). He was so smart, so curious, so eager to learn, so talented, so humble, so loving, so responsible, so funny, so much fun... I do recognize that there is a real problem with making saints out of someone after their death...but this is not the way it is for Horton...for he was a saint in life. I saw that in him before we married, and it drew me into him for I wanted to be as good as he was. I don't think I have ever come close, but when he was here I did share in his goodness, and I could feel it, and know it. I wanted it to rub off on me, and make me better. I pray that it did in some small way. I'm so sorry you did not know him, but I do Know that he approves and is a fan of YOU...and of you and Lara together. He loved Lara so much.. now that it is her birthday, I can share that he was so gentle, so sweet, so loving with her.... when she was born and all her life. We loved our girls deeply and each one differently for they are each extremely unique... I can't tell you how much he loved our girls... each one; one by one; each one day by day. That was yet another reason I almost worshipped him... he was so loving and good to his girls----even when they didn't understand him. Lara it is YOUR birthday. The day that your Daddy was so excited to see you to hold you (finally for then he had to wait a couple of days).............. he loved you, I loved you, we both did incredibly then, and we both still DO. Always remember that...he still does. You three girls were the extension, the personification of the great love that we shared/share.....for it will never stop...................it is. and I do love you Honey, but you know that.......and you know that I always will, Sandy
oh my Honey, how I love hearing you sing this song.......feeling you sing this! You are a part of me that will not Ever die...you and I share a life that is bigger than our two little lives.... because it is We. We are. Dearest Horton, I look at your precious photos, with your children, and grandchildren; I see your Mother and Dad, and I think about the legacy you gave me. "me" of all people... thank you. Most of all I thank you for your undying love, upon which I cling....I cling. What we Had/Have is timeless; it is forever. Thank you for loving me, thank you for our family (the only family I ever knew)...thank you for loving me... with a love I never knew before you......... I love you; I will always love you, Sandy
Honey, I love you so and miss you. I wish I knew a way to post something original for you, but I don't so I just post on some of my favorite places. We placed the permanent marker for you yesterday...you probably know that... I hope you know that. It was beautiful, and we found a stone that someone had placed is your honor. That someone is like all of us who love you because of WHO you ARE...always the same, always loving, always including, never hurting, always honoring others. We've watched old videos ( I do most nights just to hear you speak again, and to see you move).... but today with the family was very special... There's really nothing new for me to say, except I love you more now than ever. Here is a song that I heard last week. It isn't published, and Lara helped me find the words... they say how I feel, the music sounded like the way my heart beats now wihtout you here to hold me... here are the words... I wish I knew how to post the song for you... Even After We Say Goodbye --- words and music by Eric B. Fraley
Time was here now it’s gone, And I want you to know You’ll be right in my heart, after I go Don’t embrace me too long, my tears wanna fly You and I still belong, even after goodbye
Scared to try something new, but soon I would see The dreams inside your eyes that made me believe That these days would go on forever, that’s why You and I still belong, even after goodbye
Remember watching old movies on Sunday afternoons Back then it was safe to dream, and even fall in love But now my heart breaks, because I realize what you mean to me And I feel so far, I feel so far away
On the other side of this world, I’m thinking of you Praying that you’re well, and wondering how you’re doing As these days grow long, I feel that inside What you gave me lives on, and now I can fly To anywhere you are, even higher than the sky Cuz you and I still belong, even after goodbye ..... I will always be yours, Sandy
Oh Honey,you tug at my heart today, out of nowhere. I was busy, involved with work at church. Then on the way home I felt an over-whelming sense of loss again......... it is as though my body reminded me that you are not here. I miss you and days like today I ache for you; just to see you, to hold your hand one more time. Kara, thank you for this blogspot, where I can come and hear Daddy and just be................ I love you Honey, always have, always will.......you know that I know, but I have to say it (remember?). Always and forever yours, Sandy
Listening to you makes me feel so close to you. Thank you for leaving us with the recordings...there are others that I need to make into cd's so that we can always remember, hear, and feel you close. Honey there is supposed to be ice tomorrow...remember our hill? I think of you everyday, but especially when something major changes and I know that you would be telling me...oh, it's nothing, the roads are too warm to freeze....etc. I miss your strength, your reassurance that everything is going to be okay. Sometimes it doesn't feel okay now, I'm never sure if I'm doing things right. You were the one who told me I was on the right track,....so now I'm sort of lost most of the time. Our girls are treasures...we always knew that, but oh, honey, they are such strength for me. What would I do without them? When I look into their eyes I see you, and I remember.... I remember you. I'm sorry if this is tiring for others who get these posts, it means a lot to me to "talk" to Horton here. Thank you Kara for making this place possible. I love you Honey,I know you know that, and I miss you...I wonder if you know that?... always yours, Sandy
I have tried to leave two messages.....I am so hurt that whoever is out there will not let me do that.... I just want to say I love you....and I always, always will, Sandy
Thinking of you tonight as I watch the video you made in Navarre Beach, walking the white, sugar beach. It has been 28 months, my love, 28 months. How can I have lived without you for this time? It doesn't seem right, it is not right... not real. And yet, it is so. Time moves on for me.....I'm sure it does for you, but how? For me, it is sluggish, some wonderful times with our precious girls and family, and intense times for me in study.... but without YOU. YOU were are the best part of my life..the best part of me... How is it for you? I wonder about that. I know you are in Divine Light/Love and Completeness. For that I am forever grateful...sure, a little envious; but thankful because you, of all people I have ever known, are where you have always meant to be. I hope to join you one day, when Divine Providence declares it is time. In the meantime, my job is to do what ever I am supposed to do, and in the best way that I can--..(that is hard to determine..do you remember that?)... and then, my love, then, we will be together once more... perhaps walking those sugar beaches, talking, holding hands, and just loving each other openly. I am yours forever, I have always been yours, .......Sandy
Honey, Cherry and I heard a magnificent concert by the Civic Chorale and First Presbyterian choir yesterday...the Passion and Resurrection parts of Handel's Messiah.... I could just hear you...and wished you were singing "Thy rebuke has broken his heart..." and the other tenor airs. You are in the midst of everything my love. You are in/with me, but I also see you and hear you everywhere. I miss you more than I can describe; you were always who held me and told me things would be okay when things got crazy. I need your prayers, Honey...I keep you in mine. I love you, Sandy
Oh Honey, it seems so long ago that we saw you, had you, lost you. Now we hear of others who lose those their loved one in the same way to a senseless person drinking and driving. I think of you all the time...every day, every minute,with every breath I take...you were my breath and life for so long, sometimes it is hard to breathe now without you. Can it be 29 months, and almost 5 days... so much has happened. I feel so far away from you, so far; and that is not the way it should be, nor was it ever meant to be--at least you and I thought we would hold hands forever didn't we? I miss you, I love you...as always, and will forever. I am simply yours, Sandy
...this is the third comment I have tried to leave for you Honey... but I do want to recognize that it is now two and one-half years since you were taken from us. Sometimes time seems so sluggish, and yet, it seems like only last night that you held me close and told me you loved me. . . You would not believe all the the kids did for us this weekend...but then maybe you do know. They worked so hard, and their love is so precious to me.... Honey, I want you to know that I love you now as much if now more than I always have. You are a part of me..... we are still together in some mystical way...I know that. I am so thankful for our family, and the love that they share. They are so much like you...loving, caring concerned, and unselfish. Keep us all in your prayers.... I love you, I love you, I love you....Sandy
I come here when I begin to miss you so much that I can't stand it...which is so often. I've been thinking of how you always cared for me, when the girls were born, when I had cancer, when I had the stomach flu.... you were there; always there. I am missing you as I face this new surgery/confinement. I trust that you will be "with" me... "close" to me...... I will need you. As I always have and always will, I love you, I am yours, Sandy.
I come here when I begin to miss you so much that I can't stand it...which is so often. I've been thinking of how you always cared for me, when the girls were born, when I had cancer, when I had the stomach flu.... you were there; always there. I am missing you as I face this new surgery/confinement. I trust that you will be "with" me... "close" to me...... I will need you. As I always have and always will, I love you, I am yours, Sandy.
This is nothing new my love, just thinking of you as always. I can't think of anything to say other than I love you with all my heart.................. Sandy
I am so deeply thankful Kara that you made this video, and this tribute to your marvelous father. I couldn't sleep tonight because I missed him so much.... I had to get up and come find something of HIM to grasp, and to love. I watched our precious Florida video, and then this wonderful recording of his over-the-top voice!! Oh How I Love Him to this day, and I always will.... you are my life and love Honey.... always have been--always will be. I love you, Sandy
It is Sept. 10, 2011, an infamous date in itself, but I can only think of you my love. In two months it will be three years since you were ripped from our lives. I can't stand it. I miss you, I think of you all the time. Everything has you as a part of it...the moon, the sky, the ground, the trees, our family, our home, the porch, our bed, your closet, our memories, our children, our grandchildren........ I am so thankful that they are a part of you, and you are a part of them, but I still think of YOU everytime I see them, hear them, ..... you are there. That is a good thing, but it makes me miss you. I celebrate that you are a part of us in such an important and prominent way, yet it does make me more aware of your physical absence from us. There are times when I miss you that I think I will not be able to come out of that grief...it is all and takes all from me. It is a wall that I have to go around EVERY day, every moment. My love for you is alive, it simply IS. It is There in all I see, do, think, feel. It is as though I have had half of who I am amputated and thrown away......... and it doesn't seem to get "better", but it just seems to have different levels of experience. Most of all I want you to know that I LOVE you, I always will; I can't believe how lucky we were to have the incredible daughters and grandchildren that we do!! That is because of YOU my love, because of YOU!!! Thank you for their presence in my life....I hope you remember me, I pray you remember me, I love you. Sandy
I cry and no one sees, I scream and no one hears. You, Honey, you see and hear, you have always understood me. It is horrible not being able to converse with you, to hear your opinon, to listen to your advice. I feel so lost without you, but I try, Honey, I try.
. . .another year my love without you here physically, yet somehow I feel you even closer spiritually... I love you perhaps more than ever... strange isn't it? We are eternally connected, that has become completely clear. I wonder if you think of me, of our family? I can think of nothing else. And I must say of course you do....... that love of ours, our precious family is far more REAL than any death, than any crime, than any darkness....for our love is Light, our family is Love, and we are Forever. Forever my love, forever... I am yours, Sandy
I know you were with me, and are with me. I know that our Love is stronger than death.... I "know" this.... and I feel your nearness, thank you. Stay near... I love you, Sandy
3 years one month and about 36 or 40 hours I suppose... it all runs into the next minute, hour, day..... I will always miss you for we were meant to be together, toally together. We ARE together spiritually I Know, but I miss your hand on mine, your arm around my shoulder, your confidence, your strength, your leadership, your deep, deep love.... I just miss You. I love you forever, and forever, always yours, Sandy
You are strong in my heart, deep in my mind; you are my love. I feel your closeness. I know your company, sensing your presence. You exist as surely as ever, therefore we exist. We exist in love. Sandy
Thinking of you, but then I always do. Thinking of you thinking of me, of our shared thinking as we always have. Knowing that you exist, knowing that you acknowledge and visit me even now. Knowing that you know I am not recovering, that is not to be, but that I am just now beginning to adjust. Adjusting to the reality of your physical absence; accepting your vast spiritual reality. Loving you loving me, loving our love and the great Love who binds us. Sandy
Honey, tomorrow is Leap Year ... the last time we had a Feb.29 you were here with me. I haven't a clue what we did then, an ordinary day I suppose: no clue. All the times we spent in ordinary days circle inside my mind like so many lost kisses. I love you my dearest love, Sandy
I am missing you so much tonight, and my love reaches out for YOU!The days sort of just go by.... each one after another.... I miss you my love.............I ache for you. I don't want that to sound sad or simple... it isn't... it is a fact! I am just not complete without you.........there is so morose sadness with that, it is FACT! I am only complete WITH you! That will BE, .... it Will Be! I love you my darling, you know that. Forgive me, I just have to say it again and again....
I am missing you so much tonight, and my love reaches out for YOU!The days sort of just go by.... each one after another.... I miss you my love.............I ache for you. I don't want that to sound sad or simple... it isn't... it is a fact! I am just not complete without you.........there is so morose sadness with that, it is FACT! I am only complete WITH you! That will BE, .... it Will Be! I love you my darling, you know that. Forgive me, I just have to say it again and again....
I am missing you so much tonight, and my love reaches out for YOU!The days sort of just go by.... each one after another.... I miss you my love.............I ache for you. I don't want that to sound sad or simple... it isn't... it is a fact! I am just not complete without you.........there is so morose sadness with that, it is FACT! I am only complete WITH you! That will BE, .... it Will Be! I love you my darling, you know that. Forgive me, I just have to say it again and again....
Can it really be a year since I posted here? It has not been easy for me to use this site, but with some practice I might be able to do that now. You visited me in June, 2013 Honey..on the porch. Others might have called it a Carolina Wren but I know it was you, because we exist. We Exist an expression of healing and wholeness
You are strong in my heart, deep in my mind; you are my love. I feel your closeness. I know your company, sensing your presence. You exist as surely as ever. Therefore We exist. We exist in love.
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Hope you enjoy this song! It was such a beautiful song when he sang it and so much more meaningful now!
I wanted to show clips of his life and some of the people who have loved him.
kara
Love it Kara! For those of us who didn't get to hear Horton sing often, it is a real treat to be able to listen to the recordings. I love looking at the photos...Very well done...
Absolutely beautiful. Thanks for sharing!!!
Kim Cook
Kara, I called you as I was still sobbing after watching your precious tribute to our Honey! You have given a part of yourself within this beautiful collection of meaningful moments in your Daddy's life,..and mine. It is the epitome of all he is.... thank you.
Honey, you are so loved, and deeply missed by us all. We know you are with our Lord in his Glory now, and ask that you keep us in your prayers that we may live our lives in a way that brings you honor, and Glory to God.
I love you now more than ever, and I will always be yours,......Sandy
Honey, I hope this blogspot will now let me leave comments under my name without all the drama of missing passwords, .....I love you, Sandy
Today one year ago was the last time I was able to see your beautiful face. It was so hard, Honey to be with your physical body, but know that you were no long with us. Yet, your beautiful face still radiated love, peace, and beauty--all that you represented in your life. You had a slight crooked smile, and Michael said you looked as though you were about to tell us a joke. Oh, how I wish I could hear you tell one more slightly-off-color, corny joke! Or hear you whistle without showing it in the grocery store, irritating the clerks!! I miss our quiet moments where you would talk and laugh with me, hold me close and keep me safe. I miss YOU, I love you...forever.
Sandy
Absolutely beautiful! What a great tribute to your father. - Kim Honea
Here are some words that perfectly describe who Horton IS..... (Kara we might want to post this song by AmiciDefined):
Born with the voice of an angel. A boy with the earth on his hands. For this child of the lowly, Fate had made other plans. He was only a man of the people With barely his clothes to his name But when he sang there was magic. Touched by love's sacred flame.
La Fiamma sacra.
Holy fire in his soul, born to conquer the dark, A man who came to carry the flame.Awakening, La Fiamma sacra.
He sang to the soul of a nation
A voice for the meek and the strong. A world of fabulous stories came to life in his song. With a gift for the whole of creation He gave not for fortune or fame A simple man blessed with magic, touched by love's sacred flame.
Holy fire in his soul Born to conquer the dark, A man who came to carry the flame With a voice than can speak to the heart.
Holy Fire in his soul, born to conquer the dark, A man who came to carry the flame, Awakening- la fiamma sacra.
Beautifully done, Kara...a superb job!! Love hearing him sing, and the pictures are just great! Well done, my dear. Love ya, Shelly
Oh, Kara. Your daddy was obviously such a special, special man. I know you all miss him horribly. This is a truly beautiful tribute to him and his life. Thank you for sharing this part of your daddy with everyone. Love you.
Beth Stewart
For those of you who did not know my special husband....he was indeed loving, talented, incredibly gifted, and extremely special.......... I was so blessed to have been able to love him for 43 years..no, more for I still love him, and always will.
Thank you for coming to hear his songs...that gives me just consolation to know some young people listen to him singing, ...what he so wanted to do forever......and now he does.
Thank you, and love sincerely, Sandy
I sit here tonight, Honey, alone and confused knowing that I must go on with my life....and hating that understanding, for all that it means. Yet,I just go....go on... even though I don't exactly know what that means, or where that will take me. I know that I must devote myself to study and complete my Graduate Degree to Honor you......and bring Glory to our Father. Beyond that I had no idea what "going on" means. It has a quality and a sound that I don't like to hear..........I resist it. But to resist is to deny reality and to deny your LOVE for me......... I must go on. Help me to understand that...please. I have always looked to you to show me how I should make decisions...so you must help me now.... I love you so much that I can sometimes not breathe thinking of you...... We cannot be separate for long, and definitely not forever, for I exist in your breath........ I love you.
Sandy
Sandy and family, you are an example for us all. You bring honor and glory to our God and a lovely tribute to your beloved Honey. It is a blessing to know and love each of you.
Laurie
This just brought back so many sweet memories of your Father and Mother. Kara, how blessed we are to have your family in our lives. God bless you. You honor him well. Bette
Kara,
What a beautiful video! I really enjoy the pictures and love hearing your Daddy's wonderful voice. Your work here is very moving. Love you all so much! ~Kristi xo
Honey, How I remember all the First Sundays in Advent with you.... it is so different now. I have gone from being lost, to being confused, to being depressed, and now to being somehow caught between depression and tomorrow. I don't know where I belong; I don't know who I am. All I know for sure is that I love you. That is my ONLY reality. I float from one day to the next. Somehow, with God's help, I complete my responsibilites, and my homework, but I only float. You are still my reality....I find it so hard to allow you to be away from me.....I grasp at you, at your memory with all that I am. It is so hard to move from one moment to the next without you. Without you............... I can't imagine what that means, but it is true, dear God, I am without You! That is not the way it was meant to be, God brought us together...this is not right. I love you......................always yours, Sandy
Kara,
It's been many years since I have been in contact with. My fondest memories of you and your family was a Halloween party that you threw at your home in the 5th grade. Your parents went all out to make it the best party ever and IT WAS. I know how much you loved your dad. I had no idea that this tragedy had happened in your life. I pray that only good things such as this website comes out of it. His voice was INCREDIBLE and the beautiful photos to go with it was an absolute beautiful tribute to your dad! God bless you and your family!
Honey, I'm thinking of you so much this morning...the 2nd Sunday of Advent... it's so lonely with YOU, who gave me everything I ever wanted!
I have been listening to you sing in the car....I haven't been able to do that until recently. So now you ride with me wherever I go. But you would anyway for I hold you, and your love deep in my heart....for always, Sandy
of course that should have said, WITHOUT you.....I have such a hard time leaving comments...that I failed to preview..........
Sandy
Honey, it has been so busy, so much to do, but through it all you have been in my heart. You are with me everywhere, everyday, everymoment. Do you feel it too? 2009 is drawing to a close, and honestly I'm not too sad about that, it has been so difficult without your physical presence. I don't think I ever fully appreciated everything you did for me, because now I miss it all so much. I've been trying to sing with the choir because he helps me to feel closer to you. I lost your music for Long, Long Ago, and it upset me so much. I lost the purple scarf you bought me in the same week. Perhaps I am supposed to learn that I need to let go, not grip so tightly to the physical things that remind me of you, and search for you within our Love which never dies. I do believe that we are still connected, and always will be. Do you feel that too? I miss you. I love you, some things never change. I am yours, Sandy
Honey, today it is quiet in the house and I am slowly trying to clean up my perpetually messy office (remember?).....and listening to some beautiful Christmas music; and, as always thinking of you.
2009 is almost over, how can this be? It feels as though I am stuck at the end of 2008.
I know that I must begin to "let go" as all the advice and self-help folks preach. Perhaps I grasp too tightly to the physicality of your presence now taken away from me; perhaps I should search for your presence within me, within our memories. How do I do that? I need you to help me . . .
I love you with all my heart. The years my come and go, and change and reshape, but I will always love YOU. Sandy
OH, Honey! P.S.-- I forgot to tell you that I found the music!! It was waiting for me at church on Christmas Morning...... thank you.
Sandy
Loving this song tonight! I had a dream about my daddy last night. We were laughing and I got a big hug. That was nice! I miss that!
I am "without you." Life is "without you."
The two saddest words are "without you."
I am "without you."
What can be done for a broken heart?
What can mend a heart left brutally cut in half?
All I can think of is you, my forever love, my true heart.
Nothing else is -
except those words: without you.
I am a void, an emptiness.
I am without you. . .
Sandy
Honey, remember the night we went over to the hospital in 1966 and you tried to give the nurse your perfectly and carefully composed list of time of labor pains during our gin-rummy game? The nurse almost laughed at you....Bless your Heart...You are the most wonderful man, loving husband, and faithful father. Today as I think of Kara's birthday, I am drawn into memory of our sweet love. My love for you remains as strong as ever, I miss you. Smile down on Kara and send her your love today.
Sandy
Gee I'm missing you today Honey. I'm sorry that Inka has wandered away, but you know her, maybe she will come back as she always has before.
I have so much to tell you about Rome, and Assisi, and my wonderful new friends......... about the class, and all I've seen and learned.
You are still my best friend, and my true love, my heart, my life...it doesn't seem right not sharing all that is happening to me with you. Maybe you know it all anyway....I hope so.
There's so much I don't know...the more I learn, the more I see that I don't really know anything.
You would tell me to keep on, and that you were proud of me...I need to hear that again. I love you,
and always will, Sandy
OH Honey, your friends J.T. and Suzi Pundt made a beautiful DVD of some of your performances with the Chorale...... it was so good to See you again, doing what was so important to you and what gave you such joy........singing and performing.
It reminded me of how I fell in love with you, and how you looked when you sang.. your sweet hands moving, and your "crooked" smile (that is a private joke) !!! I love you, I love you,
Lara and Mara saw it tonight; I can't wait for Kara to see it too.
We all love you, and we will never forget your eloquent message in song..no matter what you sang, you gave it all you had.....and that has always been so glorious!
always yours, Sandy
Honey, my special and only love, I find myself devastated again thinking of loosing you, wondering why the grief was so heavy all of a sudden as I drove home from seeing Harley, that I couldn't hold it in any longer. Then I realized it was Monday once again, and 1:30 in the afternoon. How cruel these Mondays have become; how long the time between 1 and 2on Monday afternoons...
It has now been 21 months...how can that be, and Why? I touch things that you touched and I feel close to you in some way, even the non-salt shaker with "Horton's" scrawled on the side. I know you must be able to feel my tears and my pain...........I know that you must for they reach out to you into.....your presence. All I can say or think is, I love you...I love you. Sandy
Honey tomorrow is your birthday. What would we have been doing? Maybe I would make your favorite breakfast, then all the girls would call you and you would have cards all over the dining room table! Joe or someone would call you with the latest dirty joke! and you would laugh until you crowed!!! I can almost hear your laugh even now.... I love you, everyone loves you.... you are loved completely as always and forever.
Sandy
...I watch this again and again. I think of so much, our families, our parents, our children... over and over. Tonight I think of Inka...oh sweet dear loving dog. YOu loved Horton,and he loved you. We miss you, we wonder why/where you left/and went to.... we wish you were here where you belong with us.... yet we know you were a gift...a gift of God...As each of us are to each other...we can't control a gift of love....it is ....it simply is.
We miss you, we wish you were "bodily with us" so that we could "take care of you"...but isn't that silly......God takes care of you as one of his beloved creatures....just as we are....
I miss you, but I think of you as walking with Honey, your favorite person of all times...it is good that you walk together....
xoxoxIlove you both so much, Sandy
I simply love you........... forever.............
My Honey... , I offer this to you tonight:
The Life of the Pain.............
I can't express this pain.............only to acknowledge that it has a life of its own.
Some moments I can be in service for /or acknowledging others, and yet at the same time the pain is there...living its life despite my best efforts at ignoring it.
It is there. I can be listening to music; watching the glorious sunrise; hearing from my family; seeing the latest happy photo from my friends on glorious vacations; or in church watching others sit holding hands with their husbands...................................... and it is there.
The pain, the loss lives alone; it does not need my tears, nor my acknowledgement; nor my suppression...it lives a life of its own.
Its life is far freer than mine now. . . my life is gagged, and bound by society's acceptance.
I would prefer to be sobbing in the presence of all my friends; lying in my bed with the covers drawn tightly around my face; or simply sitting in the dark.
But that is not to be--for the pain does not will it. The pain now lives where I used to be. It is the commander of what is.
...and I regret that, but I am powerless before it.
Sandy, November, 2010
Honey, I still cannot breathe when I hear you sing....it takes me into another plane of existence ....your voice has always taken me away-somewhere in perfection, with you.
It is over two years now, and it seems like yesterday/a hundred years ago. It is Thanksgiving again; I am deeply thankful for the love we shared...no we share! I am completely thankful for the years we had here, our family, all you have done for me, our home, our travel, our music, our jokes, our porch-sitting, our silliness, our shared worship, our laughter, our learning together, our luxurious love... thank you for your powerful presence in my life, and all you have given me. I pray that I was able to give you a small portion of what you have given me.....I love you forever, Sandy
I've been a part of this family now for alittle over a year and everytime I read the sweet letters from My new Momma Sandy I ball like a little baby.I miss a great man whom I never had the opportunity to meet..I love you and miss you too Daddy Horton...
Tony Ward.
Thank you Tony for your comments, they mean everything to me...and it makes me realize how much I HATE having to leave my comments as Anonymous....uh! But oh Well, maybe that is the way it is to be. You did miss the physical Horton, our Honey who was/is bigger than life itself (cliche but true). He was so smart, so curious, so eager to learn, so talented, so humble, so loving, so responsible, so funny, so much fun...
I do recognize that there is a real problem with making saints out of someone after their death...but this is not the way it is for Horton...for he was a saint in life. I saw that in him before we married, and it drew me into him for I wanted to be as good as he was. I don't think I have ever come close, but when he was here I did share in his goodness, and I could feel it, and know it. I wanted it to rub off on me, and make me better. I pray that it did in some small way.
I'm so sorry you did not know him, but I do Know that he approves and is a fan of YOU...and of you and Lara together. He loved Lara so much.. now that it is her birthday, I can share that he was so gentle, so sweet, so loving with her.... when she was born and all her life. We loved our girls deeply and each one differently for they are each extremely unique... I can't tell you how much he loved our girls... each one; one by one; each one day by day. That was yet another reason I almost worshipped him... he was so loving and good to his girls----even when they didn't understand him.
Lara it is YOUR birthday. The day that your Daddy was so excited to see you to hold you (finally for then he had to wait a couple of days).............. he loved you, I loved you, we both did incredibly then, and we both still DO. Always remember that...he still does.
You three girls were the extension, the personification of the great love that we shared/share.....for it will never stop...................it is.
and I do love you Honey, but you know that.......and you know that I always will, Sandy
oh my Honey, how I love hearing you sing this song.......feeling you sing this! You are a part of me that will not Ever die...you and I share a life that is bigger than our two little lives.... because it is We. We are. Dearest Horton, I look at your precious photos, with your children, and grandchildren; I see your Mother and Dad, and I think about the legacy you gave me. "me" of all people... thank you. Most of all I thank you for your undying love, upon which I cling....I cling. What we Had/Have is timeless; it is forever.
Thank you for loving me, thank you for our family (the only family I ever knew)...thank you for loving me... with a love I never knew before you......... I love you; I will always love you, Sandy
Honey, I love you so and miss you. I wish I knew a way to post something original for you, but I don't so I just post on some of my favorite places.
We placed the permanent marker for you yesterday...you probably know that... I hope you know that. It was beautiful, and we found a stone that someone had placed is your honor. That someone is like all of us who love you because of WHO you ARE...always the same, always loving, always including, never hurting, always honoring others.
We've watched old videos ( I do most nights just to hear you speak again, and to see you move).... but today with the family was very special...
There's really nothing new for me to say, except I love you more now than ever. Here is a song that I heard last week. It isn't published, and Lara helped me find the words... they say how I feel, the music sounded like the way my heart beats now wihtout you here to hold me... here are the words...
I wish I knew how to post the song for you...
Even After We Say Goodbye --- words and music by Eric B. Fraley
Time was here now it’s gone, And I want you to know
You’ll be right in my heart, after I go
Don’t embrace me too long, my tears wanna fly
You and I still belong, even after goodbye
Scared to try something new, but soon I would see
The dreams inside your eyes that made me believe
That these days would go on forever, that’s why
You and I still belong, even after goodbye
Remember watching old movies on Sunday afternoons
Back then it was safe to dream, and even fall in love
But now my heart breaks, because I realize what you mean to me
And I feel so far, I feel so far away
On the other side of this world, I’m thinking of you
Praying that you’re well, and wondering how you’re doing
As these days grow long, I feel that inside
What you gave me lives on, and now I can fly
To anywhere you are, even higher than the sky
Cuz you and I still belong, even after goodbye
.....
I will always be yours, Sandy
... thinking of YOU tonight. Our little home is so warm, comfy, but missing you. As always and forever, I love you, Sandy
Oh Honey,you tug at my heart today, out of nowhere. I was busy, involved with work at church. Then on the way home I felt an over-whelming sense of loss again......... it is as though my body reminded me that you are not here. I miss you and days like today I ache for you; just to see you, to hold your hand one more time.
Kara, thank you for this blogspot, where I can come and hear Daddy and just be................
I love you Honey, always have, always will.......you know that I know, but I have to say it (remember?).
Always and forever yours, Sandy
Listening to you makes me feel so close to you. Thank you for leaving us with the recordings...there are others that I need to make into cd's so that we can always remember, hear, and feel you close.
Honey there is supposed to be ice tomorrow...remember our hill? I think of you everyday, but especially when something major changes and I know that you would be telling me...oh, it's nothing, the roads are too warm to freeze....etc. I miss your strength, your reassurance that everything is going to be okay. Sometimes it doesn't feel okay now, I'm never sure if I'm doing things right. You were the one who told me I was on the right track,....so now I'm sort of lost most of the time.
Our girls are treasures...we always knew that, but oh, honey, they are such strength for me. What would I do without them? When I look into their eyes I see you, and I remember.... I remember you.
I'm sorry if this is tiring for others who get these posts, it means a lot to me to "talk" to Horton here. Thank you Kara for making this place possible.
I love you Honey,I know you know that, and I miss you...I wonder if you know that?...
always yours, Sandy
I have tried to leave two messages.....I am so hurt that whoever is out there will not let me do that.... I just want to say I love you....and I always, always will, Sandy
Thinking of you tonight as I watch the video you made in Navarre Beach, walking the white, sugar beach. It has been 28 months, my love, 28 months. How can I have lived without you for this time? It doesn't seem right, it is not right... not real. And yet, it is so.
Time moves on for me.....I'm sure it does for you, but how? For me, it is sluggish, some wonderful times with our precious girls and family, and intense times for me in study.... but without YOU. YOU were are the best part of my life..the best part of me... How is it for you? I wonder about that. I know you are in Divine Light/Love and Completeness. For that I am forever grateful...sure, a little envious; but thankful because you, of all people I have ever known, are where you have always meant to be. I hope to join you one day, when Divine Providence declares it is time. In the meantime, my job is to do what ever I am supposed to do, and in the best way that I can--..(that is hard to determine..do you remember that?)... and then, my love, then, we will be together once more... perhaps walking those sugar beaches, talking, holding hands, and just loving each other openly.
I am yours forever, I have always been yours, .......Sandy
Honey, Cherry and I heard a magnificent concert by the Civic Chorale and First Presbyterian choir yesterday...the Passion and Resurrection parts of Handel's Messiah.... I could just hear you...and wished you were singing "Thy rebuke has broken his heart..." and the other tenor airs. You are in the midst of everything my love. You are in/with me, but I also see you and hear you everywhere. I miss you more than I can describe; you were always who held me and told me things would be okay when things got crazy. I need your prayers, Honey...I keep you in mine.
I love you, Sandy
Oh Honey, it seems so long ago that we saw you, had you, lost you. Now we hear of others who lose those their loved one in the same way to a senseless person drinking and driving.
I think of you all the time...every day, every minute,with every breath I take...you were my breath and life for so long, sometimes it is hard to breathe now without you. Can it be 29 months, and almost 5 days... so much has happened. I feel so far away from you, so far; and that is not the way it should be, nor was it ever meant to be--at least you and I thought we would hold hands forever didn't we?
I miss you, I love you...as always, and will forever. I am simply yours, Sandy
...this is the third comment I have tried to leave for you Honey... but I do want to recognize that it is now two and one-half years since you were taken from us.
Sometimes time seems so sluggish, and yet, it seems like only last night that you held me close and told me you loved me. . .
You would not believe all the the kids did for us this weekend...but then maybe you do know. They worked so hard, and their love is so precious to me....
Honey, I want you to know that I love you now as much if now more than I always have. You are a part of me..... we are still together in some mystical way...I know that.
I am so thankful for our family, and the love that they share. They are so much like you...loving, caring concerned, and unselfish.
Keep us all in your prayers.... I love you, I love you, I love you....Sandy
I come here when I begin to miss you so much that I can't stand it...which is so often.
I've been thinking of how you always cared for me, when the girls were born, when I had cancer, when I had the stomach flu.... you were there; always there. I am missing you as I face this new surgery/confinement. I trust that you will be "with" me... "close" to me...... I will need you. As I always have and always will, I love you, I am yours, Sandy.
I come here when I begin to miss you so much that I can't stand it...which is so often.
I've been thinking of how you always cared for me, when the girls were born, when I had cancer, when I had the stomach flu.... you were there; always there. I am missing you as I face this new surgery/confinement. I trust that you will be "with" me... "close" to me...... I will need you. As I always have and always will, I love you, I am yours, Sandy.
This is nothing new my love, just thinking of you as always. I can't think of anything to say other than I love you with all my heart.................. Sandy
I am so deeply thankful Kara that you made this video, and this tribute to your marvelous father. I couldn't sleep tonight because I missed him so much.... I had to get up and come find something of HIM to grasp, and to love. I watched our precious Florida video, and then this wonderful recording of his over-the-top voice!! Oh How I Love Him to this day, and I always will.... you are my life and love Honey.... always have been--always will be.
I love you, Sandy
It is Sept. 10, 2011, an infamous date in itself, but I can only think of you my love. In two months it will be three years since you were ripped from our lives. I can't stand it. I miss you, I think of you all the time. Everything has you as a part of it...the moon, the sky, the ground, the trees, our family, our home, the porch, our bed, your closet, our memories, our children, our grandchildren........ I am so thankful that they are a part of you, and you are a part of them, but I still think of YOU everytime I see them, hear them, ..... you are there. That is a good thing, but it makes me miss you. I celebrate that you are a part of us in such an important and prominent way, yet it does make me more aware of your physical absence from us. There are times when I miss you that I think I will not be able to come out of that grief...it is all and takes all from me. It is a wall that I have to go around EVERY day, every moment. My love for you is alive, it simply IS. It is There in all I see, do, think, feel. It is as though I have had half of who I am amputated and thrown away......... and it doesn't seem to get "better", but it just seems to have different levels of experience.
Most of all I want you to know that I LOVE you, I always will; I can't believe how lucky we were to have the incredible daughters and grandchildren that we do!! That is because of YOU my love, because of YOU!!! Thank you for their presence in my life....I hope you remember me, I pray you remember me, I love you.
Sandy
I cry and no one sees, I scream and no one hears. You, Honey, you see and hear, you have always understood me. It is horrible not being able to converse with you, to hear your opinon, to listen to your advice. I feel so lost without you, but I try, Honey, I try.
. . .another year my love without you here physically, yet somehow I feel you even closer spiritually... I love you perhaps more than ever... strange isn't it? We are eternally connected, that has become completely clear. I wonder if you think of me, of our family? I can think of nothing else. And I must say of course you do....... that love of ours, our precious family is far more REAL than any death, than any crime, than any darkness....for our love is Light, our family is Love, and we are Forever. Forever my love, forever... I am yours, Sandy
I am so thankful to have "visited" with you today...I love you and I cherish all our moments..those then and those now. I will always be yours, Sandy
I know you were with me, and are with me. I know that our Love is stronger than death.... I "know" this.... and I feel your nearness, thank you. Stay near... I love you, Sandy
3 years one month and about 36 or 40 hours I suppose... it all runs into the next minute, hour, day..... I will always miss you for we were meant to be together, toally together. We ARE together spiritually I Know, but I miss your hand on mine, your arm around my shoulder, your confidence, your strength, your leadership, your deep, deep love.... I just miss You. I love you forever, and forever, always yours, Sandy
You are strong in my heart, deep in my mind; you are my love. I feel your closeness. I know your company, sensing your presence. You exist as surely as ever, therefore we exist. We exist in love. Sandy
After 47 years I am still yours. I love you, and will forever. Sandy
Thinking of you, but then I always do. Thinking of you thinking of me, of our shared thinking as we always have.
Knowing that you exist, knowing that you acknowledge and visit me even now. Knowing that you know I am not recovering, that is not to be, but that I am just now beginning to adjust. Adjusting to the reality of your physical absence; accepting your vast spiritual reality.
Loving you loving me, loving our love and the great Love who binds us.
Sandy
Honey, tomorrow is Leap Year ... the last time we had a Feb.29 you were here with me. I haven't a clue what we did then, an ordinary day I suppose: no clue. All the times we spent in ordinary days circle inside my mind like so many lost kisses. I love you my dearest love, Sandy
I am missing you so much tonight, and my love reaches out for YOU!The days sort of just go by.... each one after another.... I miss you my love.............I ache for you. I don't want that to sound sad or simple... it isn't... it is a fact! I am just not complete without you.........there is so morose sadness with that, it is FACT! I am only complete WITH you! That will BE, .... it Will Be! I love you my darling, you know that. Forgive me, I just have to say it again and again....
I am missing you so much tonight, and my love reaches out for YOU!The days sort of just go by.... each one after another.... I miss you my love.............I ache for you. I don't want that to sound sad or simple... it isn't... it is a fact! I am just not complete without you.........there is so morose sadness with that, it is FACT! I am only complete WITH you! That will BE, .... it Will Be! I love you my darling, you know that. Forgive me, I just have to say it again and again....
I am missing you so much tonight, and my love reaches out for YOU!The days sort of just go by.... each one after another.... I miss you my love.............I ache for you. I don't want that to sound sad or simple... it isn't... it is a fact! I am just not complete without you.........there is so morose sadness with that, it is FACT! I am only complete WITH you! That will BE, .... it Will Be! I love you my darling, you know that. Forgive me, I just have to say it again and again....
Can it really be a year since I posted here? It has not been easy for me to use this site, but with some practice I might be able to do that now.
You visited me in June, 2013 Honey..on the porch. Others might have called it a Carolina Wren but I know it was you, because we exist.
We Exist
an expression of healing and wholeness
You are strong in my heart,
deep in my mind;
you are my love.
I feel your closeness.
I know your company, sensing your presence.
You exist as surely as ever.
Therefore We exist.
We exist in love.
I love you forever, Sandy
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